La Cookaracha

fat_fuu @ 2006-08-02T19:59:00

2006-08-03T03:02:46Z

ATTENTION: FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DON'T KNOW I'M IN THE PROCESS OF MOVING TO ANOTHER JOURNAL. SO EVENTUALLY I'LL ADD YOU TO MY NEW(OLD) JOURNAL ONCE THIS PAID ACCOUNT EXPIRES.

there, now you know. no bitching when i delete you. just be patient.

fat_fuu @ 2006-08-01T18:48:00

2006-08-02T01:48:46Z

Finding a job in this shit town is IMPOSSIBLE.
My head is about to explode right now.

Sometimes Dane Cook can't make ANYTHING better even though he's fucking hilarious.

2006-07-24T21:20:24Z

I have recently come to the conclusion that someone's trying to fuck me over. For whatever reason someone somewhere likes to see me miserable. I bet they beat off to it. There's probably hidden cameras in my house all over the place but too small for the naked eye to see.

"Tabitha CANNOT EVER SUCCEED AT ANYTHING EVER HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHA AHAHAHAHAHAHA. No. Nuh uh. Never."

this is my last journal entry unless something significant happens

2006-05-18T23:27:13Z

I went to see my primary care doctor today and I don't think they're ever going to find out what's wrong with me or by the time they get around to a theory I'm going to be a paraplegic and it's going to be too late. I give it another 2 months and I'll be wearing adult diapers because I'm not going to have feeling from the middle of my back down.

I'm weak, I'm getting sick for no reason and I can't eat. I want to eat, but when I try to my head feels weird and my jaw doesn't want to move.
And my mom, god bless her, I know she wants this to be over with but I'm not sure if it matters that I'm better in the end, and my sister has her own family to worry about and she thinks I'm faking it so my support system is myself at the moment and all I want to do is cry. I'm at my wits end here. I want so much to just give up because it feels like I'm fighting a losing battle. I can't see myself getting any better from this, whatever it is that's wrong.

I'm just scared. I'm scared because no one's taking me seriously. I can barley take care of myself and no one think's it's a big deal.

and so that's that. I've said all that I can say at the current time. this is probably my last entry so it was fun while it lasted. bye

wooo assult on middle earth!!!

2006-05-10T03:58:27Z

my arm went numb yesterday. not just like oh half of my arm is numb because of the way i slept, i mean i was washing my hair in the shower and from my shoulder down went completely numb. it was the second scariest thing that's happned to me. i know some of you are saying "why's that scary to you?" and i will answer that; there's something wrong with me and i dunno what and doctors refuse to see me because i dont have insurance. i can't bend my head without some feeling going down into my leg and my hand. i can't walk withotu my leg feeling like it's going numb and will eventually give out on me. and now my hand is fucked. but this isn't like a few months ago when my ahnd went all weird. this is worse because that went away. unfortunately it's not the same thing because that i could live with, this shit about it going numb for no god damned reason is horrible. i'm paranoid to take a shower now and i dont want to go to sleep. i'm so fucking scared that whatever is wrong with me is irriversable or that it's going to get worse before i can see a doctor. well i know it's getting worse actually or maybe better, i'm not sure. it's not as bad in my leg as it was, like behind my kneecap hurts and the side of my thigh tingles, but now it's worse in my hand. a doctor i saw before said it was my sciatic nerve but woudl that affect my hand? maybe i have a pinched nerve in my back, i dunno. i can't trust doctors anymore. i have been misdiagnosed all the way around.

but on a happier note, sarah ran into danny, so he's stalking her now instead of me and i got Gag to level 51 today. XD

fat_fuu @ 2006-05-01T07:31:00

2006-05-01T14:31:47Z

There's a pig in my backyard right now and it's ugly:

I dunno how it got in because my backyard is fenced in, but it got in... o_o

Anyways, good morning livejournal x_x

fat_fuu @ 2006-04-22T12:21:00

2006-04-22T19:21:14Z

i went to the doctor yet again, but this one was closer to what i might actually have; Sciatica(sp?). my sciatic nerve is fucked. so he told me to take some pills stop smoking and lose 20 lbs. nice guy eh?

fat_fuu @ 2006-04-18T16:14:00

2006-04-18T23:14:53Z

i didn't get my check today. my legs are numb.

human pin cushion

2006-03-31T17:54:30Z

i went to the ER yesterday for my dizziness and was made into a human pin cusion.the nurse that was in charge of the IV decided to put the lock IV in my right wrist after deciding my right hand, arm and my left arm wouldn't thread the IV, but naturally he tried those first.
we were there for 8 hours, and according to them there is nothing wrong with me. my arm being numb was a concern to him though and diagnosed that when i said i wanted a second opinion as Raynaud's Phenomena. so he gave me an anti inflammatory med with a side effect list a page long and ordered a CT scan.
that went well >.>
the machine broke while i was in it. twice. but they were able to get the scans of my head and neck before giving up. those came back as normal. so my dizzy ness or the feeling of something in my throat went undiagnosed and i was sent home with orders to see my non existent primary care doctor.
i haven't gotten a good night's sleep in over a week now and all i seem to want to do is cry. i can't get medi-cal because i'm not pregnant, with kid and i'm white. i can't get insurance because i can't afford it. my mom can't get insurance for the same reason and the company she works for doesn't offer it. i can't pay for any of this and i dont know what to do.
i thought i was happy with the chiropractic diagnosis of a pinched nerve, but since lasts night adventures i'm inclined to get a third opinion.

=/

2006-03-29T18:45:40Z

i'm sick on top of being numb. i don't know what i have but i'm going to see my moms doctor tomorrow.

fat_fuu @ 2006-03-23T19:15:00

2006-03-24T03:14:28Z

why does everyone keep saying that i'm all right when i'm not? my hand is numb. my foot is numb and by tomorrow my whole right side is going to be completely numb. is it still going to be all right then? there is something wrong with me. i am not all right.

[edit]well i was right y'know. pretty much the entire right side of my body is numb except my face.

IDENTITY THEFT IS REAL FOLKS

2006-03-21T04:16:50Z

I know, it happened to me on Friday.
Some jerk ass got ahold of my card info and went to town at Cingular, thus over drafting my account. Nice huh? I thought it was a lovely early birthday present. What a nice guy. So anyways, it's being taken care of, BY THE POLICE. I had to file an IDENTITY THEFT report this morning when I found out I was ripped off. I chewed out EVERYONE at Cingular and my bank.
When I called Cingular to find what the fuck was going on I asked for the account holders information so and the lady told me that by law she couldn't give me any more then a last name: Logan. BUT the police could get that information. So that's what I did. So they're going to send me forms to give to Cingular so they have no choice but to give that information and reverse the charges made to my account. But I'm pretty sure I pissed off everyone at Wellfargo.
I filed a claims report with them and they told me they couldn't reverse the over draft fees because the charges to Cingular had already gone through, so I started yelling at them that I'm not paying for any of it. So I told them I'm leaving the account open and taking everything off of it until the charges are all reversed then I'm closing it. Fuckers.

So starting tomorrow there's going to be a nice big investigation into who the fuck decided to try and fuck me over.

fat_fuu @ 2006-02-13T15:03:00

2006-02-13T23:03:29Z

well, there went my last ditch effort to do something on my birthday. fucking matt i swear to god. why are guys never there when you need them? meh.

fat_fuu @ 2006-02-12T22:45:00

2006-02-13T06:45:07Z

Ok this is gay. Anti-Flag is gonna be in LA ON my birthday.
The day I was born some 22 years ago(that day) they will be playing a show in LA.
That is gay and I am mad because I won't be able to go. Like fuck.

fat_fuu @ 2006-02-10T22:24:00

2006-02-11T06:29:49Z

FOR EVERYONE WHO WISHES TO PARTICIPATE: PICK A NUMBER BETWEEN 1 AND 2905(number subject to change at any time without notice) AND I'LL UPLOAD THAT CORRISPONDING SONG FROM MY WINAMP PLAYLIST FOR YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE TO DOWNLOAD(we love yousendit).

This is what I've decided to do instead of an actual entry. But if you want one...

I've been sick the last week and without very much sleep until this morning. I'm still kind of sick, but not as bad as I was. Also I am going to bed now. Enjoy picking numbers.

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total_blam_blam - #5. 175R - Blue
militantfairy - #34(i rounded up). Agent Orange - Too Young to Die
radtastic_robot - #1033. Hole - She Walks On Me
starfall_ - #222. Architecture In Helsinki - In Case We Die pt 1-4
fhqwhg4d5 - #2764. Youth Brigade - Violence

fat_fuu @ 2006-02-04T15:44:00

2006-02-04T23:42:03Z

yup. I got it done this morning and it was painful.

sarah's here and i have to go to the store. so later lj.

today:

2006-02-04T01:48:58Z

went to the dentist. first they said "ROOT CANAL", then they said "oh, just a fill". so fill it was. my upper lip and half of my nose are completely numb. it's gay. next: ZORRO or maybe something less gay.

tomorrow: INDUSTRIAL.

1/27 Of Montreal feat MgMt, Dj Jester and Grand Buffet

2006-01-28T23:37:29Z

I tried to do this when I got home, but I passed out.

First, the tickets lied to us. The venue WAS NOT at 1156 Glendale Ave, but 1822 Sunset. So we got turned around back-asswards and lost for a little while. But the nice guy at the postal place helped us out and we got there. YAY.

We met Sebastian and some giggling girls. They were cool. The tickets then lied to us again. The show DID NOT start at 7 pm, it actually started at like 8.

The first band was ok, but the guys pants scared me. The second band on the other hand, Grand Buffet was fucking awesome and I got pics with Jackson and he signed my cd. Dj Jester was badass too. But Of Montreal was a weird spectacle when they first came on.

Kevin came out in a wedding dress and said "We're going to make love to you tonight, but first we have to get married". So then we said yes and he asked a girl to marry him and she screamed a lot and it was funny. He took off his wedding gown and put a shirt on and the show started. Also, he changed shirts like 3 times and ended the show in sunglasses and an orange rain coat...

About 20 mins into the show Kevin decided to shove his crotch in my face. This happened twice. But I got a picture with him too after the show so it was ok.

Oh and Lord Grunge from Grand Buffet signed a cigarette for me and I stole the blue Sunlandic Twins flyer that was on the wall. Met Dj Jester (I wish I would have gotten a picture with him too T_T), bought some t-shirts and came home.

But yeah and now for the pictures
http://pics.livejournal.com/fat_fuu/gallery/0000ar6w

Sarahs Gallery
http://pics.livejournal.com/radtastic_robot/gallery/000143z2

fat_fuu @ 2006-01-26T22:30:00

2006-01-27T06:30:30Z

side view. you can see the old tattoo as well as a fuck ton of ink.

this is teh top. as you can see it's a dragon...

the side. heh, my foot looks liek a potato

it goes up to my ankle. basically it covers my foot almost entirely. sexy eh?

any ways, i'm going back in a month to finish it. it's gonna be all colorful and pretty. but for now my foot looks a lot like a tattooed sausage.

i'm excited. are you excited? 'cause i'm excited.

honey bbq soybeans are delicious

2006-01-26T07:32:55Z

it's true y'know.

anyways, i'm fucking tired but restless at the same time. i'm going to maddogs tomorrow to see what someone can do with my foot. hopefully something neat.

so, more tomorrow.

g'night livejournal.

fat_fuu @ 2006-01-03T12:59:00

2006-01-03T20:59:49Z

i gauged my ears and dyed my hair today.

very productive.

fat_fuu @ 2005-12-15T19:16:00

2005-12-16T03:16:26Z

fantastic. my head cold is giving me nose bleeds.

this not having medical coverage thing is really starting to piss me the fuck off

fat_fuu @ 2005-12-13T17:21:00

2005-12-14T01:19:20Z

ok well i'm sick. i'm not goint o be able to go to my interview tomorrow because of that. i think i have strep throat, also it's fucking hot in here and my mom won't turn the fucking heater off. so i'm going to die any minute now.

breakfast burritos

2005-11-21T16:47:52Z

oh man, the goblet of fire is better the second time you see it. :P went yesterday with me mum. she liked it.

today i go see my doctor about refilling a thing and apply for my life insurance job things on the internetz. my life is a big pile of suck so far. :(

fat_fuu @ 2005-11-05T11:17:00

2005-11-05T19:15:39Z

sarah came over last night and we finally found of out much it's gonna cost me to get my n64 cleaned, 60 bucks. haha. so sarah took it home to see if her aunt could open it so she could clean it herself and see what happens. then we decided to go to gamestop, and against my better judgment i bought Oogies Revenge. so between zelda(the minish cap, cause i haven't finished it yet T_T), oogies revenge and katamari, i'm gonna be online even less then i was the last few weeks. sorry darren. :( i still love you though.

i need a job and a micro.